New Responsibility, but Old Attitudes

Recently, my mother went to Europe for a vacation. It is her first time there and I am really excited for her and wish her all the best. I am left at home for two weeks with only my brother. however, he has the worst attitude towards me. This has been on-going for several onths, off and on. I am always thinking about what I have said or done to affect hm in sucha negative way. how can I be a good sister if I don't acknowledge and understand how and what he is thinking? It is so difficult to deal with him that sometimes I have suicidal thoughts. He says mean things and I feel that I am tricked into getting mad by him. then, he says" See like this, you always get mad. What is having a sister for anyway?" I know I am complaining right now and I should work on my problems and communicate better with him. I should control my temper more and listen to him, which I always do. I give him choices about what to do, but he still ignores me. Maybe it is better that I didn't exist. I care about him, but he has no idea how busy I am. I hope one day he will realize what his impact on others is. Or maybe he does it on purpose to slight me and piss me off. We both think the other is annoying. Maybe I should ignore him, too, since he is going through puberty. I have to take care f the household, though. I need to think of some way to make him trust me again. I'm still hopeful he will change his attitude and become happy again with those around him. I can't stand that we are always arguing, I always apologize, too. Maybe he thinks I'm weak and won't ever stand up to him. then, when I do he uses it against me... there must be something I can do!!!!!!!

If you read this, my brother, don't be offended. it is how I feel at this time and i hope you can accept how I think on certain things. I never meant to attack you or harm you verbally in any way. After all, we both know we get mad over small things. I f we can work on our communication, then lots of problems can be solved. What do you think? We should work together and live happy lives while Mom is enjoying her vacation. don't be so grumpy, it hurts to hear you say such bad things. Remember, I changed you diapers and taught you lots of things when you were a baby. You might htink I have no right to tell you what to do, and you know what? YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT! Mom is not here though, so she put me in charge.