Simple-minded, follows directions to a tee, worries are few (well actually this doesn't fit me), does what he wants because he wants to. OK, I think that's where the similarities stop. Oh wait, yeah I'd get shot in the butt for my friends, too. the ones who stay and are loyal. The ones you can have long conversations with when you;re supposed to be doing homework or studying for a test because he/sh has a problem they really want to share or you have exciting news. Those are the friends you can get shot for. It's special to have one really good friend. If you have more than one, it's very lucky indeed.
Another similarity is with the following directions. I think I've made myself become a follower. Like, I can think for myself, sure. A lot of teachers think I am individualistic because I'm very blunt and I don't hide the truth. It's very hard for me to lie for any good reason. It shows in my writing. I'm not afraid to tell the truth. Sometimes I feel like a mouse that a lion is going to pounce on just for fun. No one really understands me the way I mean for them to understand me because I always become very reserved and quiet when arguments happen. It seems that I'm scared or afraid of speaking up, but I just don't like arguing with people. It's a waste of time when you can just not get mad and talk about things. It makes me uncomfortable when I get criticized for this because it makes me feel like I'm an idiot or even worse, like I'm useless. I know it's most likely all in my head, but what people think and what people say are two different things. the only people worth trusting are your family. You can't even trust yourself sometimes, because you'll do something extremely wrong and feel like dying. Then, some people really go and kill themselves. I wonder if it's possible to become emotionally neutered.
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