i really have to get on about writing if i really want to do what i said i would do previously. is that too confusing? i've been thinking about what i would write and the characters and things. i haven't written any stories or poems in a while. well a poem once in a while. not recorded, that's what i mean. i don't write it down. it just stays in my brain like an infestation of termites in the foundation of your house. haha first simile in months. i feel like such a loser these days. like i let myself down before i did anything. sometimes i have no faith in myself that i will achieve my dreams and hopes. notice how everything is in lowercase letters? that is a writing technique too! although, not very grammatically correct and probably not very acceptable in traditional english writing. but it does say a lot about the person writing. oh my god i can't believe i'm analyzing the way i write this post. i'm such a nerd.
anyways, at other times i think there's still a while before i have to actually make it all happen. but it's wrong because there might not really be 2 or 3 years to decide my future. maybe it'll all end tomorrow. maybe i really will give up and go into business, just like what my mom did. i don't like to think i'll be exactly like my mom, though. i'm not going to follow the same path because it worked for her.
i want to go back to ubc. maybe i can next year.i'm still enrolled, but not registered in classes. they even offered me residence for winter session, but it expires novemeber 2. does this count as being lost? or just really brainwrangling mad? god, there must be some sign or something. damn it, why can't it be like The Alchemist when there's a black and a white stone and when you see an omen you know exactly what your future is? paulo coehlo is a genius. i'd like to write like him someday. it's so simple, yet difficult at the same time.
am i putting myself down by being over-compulsive in asking so many questions?
i just noticed i made up a new word. brainwrangling! ha! well maybe someone else has used it as well. i'll check. :P
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The best way to be a good writer is to be a good reader first. What are you reading now? Who are some of your favorite authors?
Besides school books, the latest books I've read are by Mitch Albom. For One More Day and The five People You Meet in Heaven. I love his writing style. It seems siomple, but his meaning and implications are deep and sometimes profound. I want to read Deepak Chopra, but I havne't gone to the library to check yet. I read a lot of novels, so it's hard to list them all right now. I also read cooking books and investing books. I read news online.
brainwrangling! oh~interesting word, haha~~
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